yesterday
Yesterday I felt shitty almost all day. Tired, hungover, depressed for a number of reasons I won’t go into because I do have some pride. Plus I was at work which didn’t help. At one point, during the day I went outside to smoke (I smoke at work). As I was standing there waiting for some signal to feel better, I saw a small anole lizard with his skin turned dark brown to soak up the sun. And maybe even I was looking for some sort of signal I would have found one anyway, I felt like it was an omen and a message that I should stop wallowing it whatever it is I’ve been feeling. I decided that I ‘d need to take my mind of stuff and get some real sleep, start eating and try to stay busy. When I went home I laid down still in my clothes and took a nap.
A little while later Karen and Jason brought some great early birthday presents by and when they left I tried to watch On the Waterfront. I fell asleep for a bit on my chair, then I went into my room and slept for about 13 hours. The point is, today I feel a lot better.