My weblog has dropped even the slightest pretense of being about anything other than me lately. I hope no one has missed my impotent, political ravings too terribly much. I can’t promise they’ll be back. I just really got sick of hearing myself and I realized that I really don’t know anything. I mean I know things and I have insights and opinions, but I don’t have any answers. Even if I did I don’t know if I would know what to do with them. It doesn’t mean I don’t have certain feelings or opinions it just means I’m more reluctant to say anything totally definitive. Hopefully this is part of growing older or maturing or becoming more pragmatic. I really don’t know. I’d like to stop knowing and start learning.
Anyway, with that said, here are a list of November resolutions that I really need to make:
Stop sleeping so much. Am I depressed or do I have some problem waking the hell up?
Introduce more regimentation and organization in my life. I never seem to have any extra time, but I think it’s because I lack order and discipline. For example, today I slept almost 12 hours and played Desert Combat for six more hours, three hours before eating and hanging out with Jody, and three hours after, when I should have been sleeping.
Draw more, read more, write more. It’s all related.
Keep surroundings clean. I’ve noticed that there is a feedback loop in terms of my environment/body and my mood. When things are messier I feel crappier and when I feel crappier things get messier. Makes sense to me. Things look ugly, you look ugly, then you feel ugly and like everything else is ugly.
Plan for the future. I’ve been thinking about going back for my master’s degree. I think I’ve wasted a good part of the past few years because I lacked any sort of plan for myself.
Start making lists. That kinda goes with some of the above.
Look for a better job where I can actually work at the same time as everyone else. I’m too old for this.
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