I’ve gotten myself into this habit of not being able to fall asleep when I should. Usually by working the idea into my head that I’m not going to get enough sleep which little by little permeates my brain resulting in the reality of not getting any sleep whatsoever. It doesn’t help that I get home from work at 4am so if I want to do anything the following day I must go to bed almost immediately. Today I was planning on going into work at 12:30pm or so to do a few things and then go swimming at Barton Springs. I might try to stay up and go in to work at 5pm which will result in staying up around thirty-six hours by the time I’m done. Yes, I’m an idiot.
If I know I’ve stayed up too late, I try to avoid looking at the time because I seem to feel better if I don’t know how much (or how little) sleep I got. And I really make a point not to look at the clock if I wake up in the middle of the night or it seems like it’ll be time to get up soon. If I know I only have two more hours to sleep, it invariably takes me an entire hour to sleep again and the alarm doesn’t wake me up.