Lately, I’ve been seeing some good films which have made me feel more excited about going to the movies. I feel like I’ve lost touch with the feelings and ideas that film can evoke. Last night I saw ‘Raising Victor Vargas‘ at the Dobie. I really liked how real the movie felt. It reminded me of a lot of things from my own childhood and adolescence. Especially how my little brother and I would spend the summers, completely bored and aimless yet thick as thieves, spending almost every waking moment together looking for something to do and talking to each other as we roamed the neighborhood. There is something about being bored which makes it where you have to make your own fun from the raw material of life. In my early teenage years I did the most drawing, reading, letter-writing and daydreaming I’ve ever done. In later life, time is so scarce and I barely remember what I do from one day to the next anyway. I think the main difference between being a kid and an adult is that when you’re a kid you always have something to look forward to. You’re always in anticipation of something else, summer vacation or going back to school or leaving home. I think when you are in control (more or less) of your own existence you lose this intense feeling of anticipation. Sometimes I can only see as far ahead as the end of the work day.